Dangerous Combinations

Day 5: Sugar Rush

There is something terribly morbid in the modern sympathy with pain. One should sympathise with the colour, the beauty, the joy of life. The less said about life’s sores the better. - Oscar Wilde

Today marked the solar eclipse in Gemini during the Venus Rx and New Moon.  At 0 degrees Gemini it’s all about karmic cycles and new beginnings.  Basically the theme of this eclipse was “Choosing the Truth.”

Melissa and I had a garden party in the back yard.  We asked our guests to bring any plants they’d like to plant and any treats they’d like to share.  We discussed astrology, art, and palm reading.  It was one of those laid back Sundays you read about in glossy magazines.

Remembering to relax and not be glued to a computer is important.  It’s something I forget from time to time.

And yet there was a darker side to this Sunday eclipse, not one associated with any person but one associated with one of my own issues, food, sugar, portions, and control.  I snacked on small pieces of strawberries and salted nuts.  Little did I know my self deceptions were about to be smashed.

I binged, badly, so badly I don’t even want to say how much I ate.  But I did, and oddly enough wasn’t that angry with myself.  But I did find it strange that on an eclipse and New Moon I was going back into a very negative habit.  And here I was with crumbs in my bed trying to see beyond the veil.  There’s still body issues at hand, my self delusion that I could get rid of them by being strict was completely blown apart.  The body retaliates and consumes what it has been denied.  While I need to be careful with sugar, it’s not all sugar.  Be healthy, eat things that make you feel good, keep exercising was the message.  How Taurus of me.

1.) Confession -  The binging, oh the binging.
2.) Oracle - The Strength Card
3.) Body - Relaxed in the garden
4.) Sacrifice - The internet
5.) Relinquish - Shame about binging
6.) Inspiration - The back garden and beautiful friends
7.) Structure - Photo editing and sketching

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